Filling the Quiet
Sometimes I notice myself trying to fill space – not because I’m bored, and not really to be productive either. Just to not be still.
A few weekends ago I restructured my whole Proxmox setup. Switched to RAID 6, cleaned everything up, reorganised how the drives talk to each other. It felt good. Necessary? Not really. But it gave me something clear to do. A task with steps and outcomes. A way to stay in motion.
Lately I’ve realised how often I treat stress by doing more, not less. Not because I feel guilty resting, but because rest leaves room for the things I don’t want to think about. And somehow, avoiding that internal noise by building systems, fixing small things, or taking on new projects feels easier than letting my body catch up.
An article I read, talked about how we often confuse activity with output. That resonated. Especially now, after moving from graphic design studies – where thinking deeply was part of the process – into a faster-paced work life. There’s less time to sit with ideas. Less room to overthink. That’s not all bad, but it’s a shift I’m still learning to navigate.
Creative space doesn’t come from adding more. It comes from the gaps. The stillness I tend to avoid.
I'm not trying to change that overnight. But I’m trying to notice it.